I Just Don’t Know

There are many moments where I am just like, “really God?” I have a lot of questions that don’t seem to have a lot of answers. Or do they? We live in an age with information overload. We have a lot of knowledge but because it is coming at such a rapid pace people are short circuiting and going crazy.

There was a season I was in where everything was so uncertain, so I decided that I was okay with not knowing what was going on. I got honest with myself and as a coping mechanism if something challenging ever came my way I was straight up. I became comfortable letting people know I didn’t have an answer.

Get off my back!

This was my new slogan and I was ready to whip it out at a moments notice. My “I don’t know” eventually turned into “I don’t care.”

It never solved anything, but it made me have a place to hide in plain sight.

Where there is no vision, the people perish. (Proverbs 29:18)

My lack of understanding left me in a detrimental position. Choosing not to deal with what I didn’t know may my life a series of repeats.

My life is a result of that decision. Choosing not to decide is a decision that has repercussions. I learned the hard way that what you don’t know can definitely hurt you. Once I was given an example about a live wire. If it is sitting in a puddle of water and I step in it unknowingly doesn’t mean it won’t still shock me. The principle is to gain wisdom and understanding.

The next problem I encountered was that there were some answers I needed from people near me with experience in areas I am yet growing in. For some reason I felt like they were withholding information. Sometimes I just need to sit at the feet of a teacher and let them just talk. But no one had the time, or I was to afraid to ask for the help. Either way it was not working for me. So, I became a sermon junkie. I watch at least 20 sermons a week. They fuel me to a point but even then, I feel like something is missing. There is this strong desire in me to know…something.

I just realized my hunger is for the mind of God. I heard the most interesting thing this week. I was listening to a sermon by Dr. Myles Munroe where he preached about the Holy Spirit. He spoke on the fact that Jesus only did what was on the mind of God. The Holy Spirit is the mind of God on the inside of us. He leads us into all truth. How do I know he is leading me to all truth? Because his word bears witness to Jesus. With this nugget I have recently opened my bible and am learning to read through a new filter. I want to know what God knows. I want to get to a place where I am saying and doing what is on his mind (what is in his word) through the leading of the Holy Spirit.

The many questions I have had alone this week have been answered since I received this revelation. So, I ask God, “tell me what is on your mind today.” Through the bible I am learning God’s character and how the decisions he makes are based on the fact that he is a good father with good intentions for me. (Jeremiah 29:11)

The book of proverbs is where I started. It is like the central hub for me.

Proverbs 1

A Manual for Living

1 1-6 These are the wise sayings of Solomon,
David’s son, Israel’s king—
Written down so we’ll know how to live well and right,
to understand what life means and where it’s going;
A manual for living,
for learning what’s right and just and fair;
To teach the inexperienced the ropes
and give our young people a grasp on reality.
There’s something here also for seasoned men and women,
still a thing or two for the experienced to learn—
Fresh wisdom to probe and penetrate,
the rhymes and reasons of wise men and women.

There is something here for everything. The word of God definitely helps me to navigate the way I deal with life. The Holy Spirit will help us to live this thing out just to prove that it is possible, dare I say it, to love the life you live. To be completely satisfied in God and enjoy every good and perfect gift that comes from him.

Start with God

Start with God—the first step in learning is bowing down to God;
only fools thumb their noses at such wisdom and learning. Proverbs 1:7 MSG

The beginning of all wisdom is God. Who better to tell you how to live than the creator himself. Get to know him, seek after what he knows and in him you will find life.

“The very words that I have spoken, they are spirit and they are life… John 6:63 NLT

Right about now this is what I need. LIFE. Fresh life. Fresh perspective. The mind of the maker himself. Today I ask, “God what is the point? What is your purpose for this world you have created, and most of all where are we headed?”

Snap, I just got the answer that quick.

19 “Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live! 20 You can make this choice by loving the Lord your God, obeying him, and committing yourself firmly to him. This is the key to your life. And if you love and obey the Lord, you will live long in the land the Lord swore to give your ancestors Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.” Deuteronomy 30

All I had to do was ask!

The truth is, we have a choice. Our life is a sum total of choices, both good and bad, intentional and unintentional.

The Year of “Why Not”

Most people fail at their New Year’s resolution because they go into the new year with nothing but expectation that the new year holds something they did not possess in the previous year. We walk in empty handed expecting something to magically fulfill us.

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This year I would like to try something different. With the time left in 2018 I am going to acquire the tools that will help me progress in my New Year’s resolution, getting a running start.
                                                    Keys to getting a running start

1. Never stop praying. 1 Thessalonians 5:17
When is it improper to consult with God? The spirit of God will lead us into all truth but if the line of communication is not open it shuts down the possibilities of the “exceedingly and abundantly above all we can “ask or imagine” if we never get to the ask. This is not a one-sided conversation. If you stay down long enough the spirit of God will answer you.
2. Get in the word.
Joshua 1:8 God charges Joshua saying “study this book of instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so that you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only the will you prosper and succeed in all you do.”
3. Get around like minded people.
Hebrews 10:24-25 Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works. And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near.” There is great success when two or more agree and get together. Jesus declares “for where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.”

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These things come with the development of habits and consistency. One thing I have learned about God is that he will not take you where you do not want to go. He will never override your will. He will not act independently of you on your behalf unless he is invited.  The only way that I can pursue the things that God has for me is that I must have a strong desire for him. Instead of desiring the blessing so badly, I want to desire the one who blesses.

What I have discovered in times pass is that after receiving a word from God, I chased the visions and forgot the one who would give me the steps to complete it. This got me no where really fast.

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Enter failure. Enter the will to not try again. Not this time! This time after receiving the vision I am going to go before God and ask what type of person I need to become to possess the promise. I want to be able to uphold it with a righteous standard that will allow God to sustain me when it comes.

For me God has named the new year “the year of why not”. Why not enjoy God? Why not pursue the passions God has placed in me? Why not go further than that which is expected of me. Why not pursue loving more, being more generous, spending time with people I love? Why not pursue the joy of the Lord where I find my strength? Why not kick the door down to limitations and hopelessness? There are many things that I have allowed to stop me from going for where I really want to be. This time the only thing that will set the focus for what I pursue is God’s word and his holy spirit.

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How to Fight: Spiritual Warfare

Sometimes we feel we are given commands from God and we really don’t know how to follow through.

For me, fighting the good fight of faith (1 Timothy 6:12), seemed abstract. Ok so how do we do that?

Thankfully God does not leave us without instructions.

Therefore submit to God.

Resist the devil and he will flee from you.

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.

Cleanse your hands, you sinners;

and purify your hearts, you

double-minded.

Lament and mourn and weep! Let

your laughter be turned to

mourning and your joy to gloom.

Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up.

James 4:7‭-‬10 NKJV

Honestly, these instructions on the surface are not for the faint hearted. It takes some patients to fight from this position. It takes some fasting and prayer in the middle of the night.

To me, this verse is clearly something Jesus did when he prayed to God before he was to be crucified.

Although this was not idea for Jesus’s human nature, it was God’s will that he sacrifice himself. We often say we want to be like Jesus, but what does it look like? Does it mean our life will be easy? No. But it does mean we will have the strength to endure.

This fight renews strength instead of draining it from you. Instead of being fought from this position:

It’s fought from this position:

Unconventional method, for an unconventional people.

And even through it all we automatically have the victory!

“The Lord will cause your enemies who rise against you to be defeated before your face; they shall come out against you one way and flee before you seven ways. “The Lord will command the blessing on you in your storehouses and in all to which you set your hand, and He will bless you in the land which the Lord your God is giving you. “The Lord will establish you as a holy people to Himself, just as He has sworn to you, if you keep the commandments of the Lord your God and walk in His ways.
Deuteronomy 28:7‭-‬9 NKJV