Royal Mess Up- Learning how to recover from mistakes you have made.

We as mankind are bound to encounter stumbling along the way. There are or will be moments of regret where we have royally messed up and feel there is no recovery possible.

The bible clearly identifies men who although were upright made huge life altering mistakes, one’s that would have doomed them to hell if it were not for the grace of God. The funny thing is that these are the teaching moments God will use to direct us back to him.

Here is an example of one among many.

King David

2 Samuel 11-12

David and Bathsheba

1 In the spring, at the time when kings go off to war, David sent Joab out with the king’s men and the whole Israelite army. They destroyed the Ammonites and besieged Rabbah. But David remained in Jerusalem.

2 One evening David got up from his bed and walked around on the roof of the palace. From the roof he saw a woman bathing. The woman was very beautiful, 3 and David sent someone to find out about her. The man said, “She is Bathsheba, the daughter of Eliam and the wife of Uriah the Hittite.” 4 Then David sent messengers to get her. She came to him, and he slept with her. (Now she was purifying herself from her monthly uncleanness.) Then she went back home. 5 The woman conceived and sent word to David, saying, “I am pregnant.”

And to this we say dang! David’s moment of passion and lust led to an undoable mistake. For a moment he tried to scheme his way out of it.

He sent for Uriah to lay with Bathsheba but he refrained out of respect for God and his fellow soldiers.

11 Uriah said to David, “The ark and Israel and Judah are staying in tents, and my commander Joab and my lord’s men are camped in the open country. How could I go to my house to eat and drink and make love to my wife? As surely as you live, I will not do such a thing!”

From here David becomes more desperate for a cover up.

14 In the morning David wrote a letter to Joab and sent it with Uriah. 15 In it he wrote, “Put Uriah out in front where the fighting is fiercest. Then withdraw from him so he will be struck down and die.”

16 So while Joab had the city under siege, he put Uriah at a place where he knew the strongest defenders were. 17 When the men of the city came out and fought against Joab, some of the men in David’s army fell; moreover, Uriah the Hittite died.

It would seem at this point that David can breathe a sigh of relief….

2 Samuel 12:1 MSG

But God was not at all please with what David had done, and sent Nathan to David.

9 Why did you despise the word of the Lord by doing what is evil in his eyes? You struck down Uriah the Hittite with the sword and took his wife to be your own. You killed him with the sword of the Ammonites. 10 Now, therefore, the sword will never depart from your house, because you despised me and took the wife of Uriah the Hittite to be your own.’

11 “This is what the Lord says: ‘Out of your own household I am going to bring calamity on you. Before your very eyes I will take your wives and give them to one who is close to you, and he will sleep with your wives in broad daylight. 12 You did it in secret, but I will do this thing in broad daylight before all Israel.’”

13 Then David said to Nathan, “I have sinned against the Lord.”

Nathan replied, “The Lord has taken away your sin. You are not going to die. 14 But because by doing this you have shown utter contempt for the Lord, the son born to you will die.”

At this point I would not know if I could go on. If messing up royally had a picture next to it David’s face would surely be there. From here we ask how do we get pass messing up so bad with God and live a normal life.

See below how David proceeded.

15 After Nathan had gone home, the Lord struck the child that Uriah’s wife had borne to David, and he became ill. 16 David pleaded with God for the child. He fasted and spent the nights lying in sackcloth[b] on the ground. 17 The elders of his household stood beside him to get him up from the ground, but he refused, and he would not eat any food with them.

At this point David is desperate and his servants take note.

18 On the seventh day the child died. David’s attendants were afraid to tell him that the child was dead, for they thought, “While the child was still living, he wouldn’t listen to us when we spoke to him. How can we now tell him the child is dead? He may do something desperate.”

20 Then David got up from the ground. After he had washed, put on lotions and changed his clothes, he went into the house of the Lord and worshiped. Then he went to his own house, and at his request they served him food, and he ate.

22 He answered, “While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept. I thought, ‘Who knows? The Lord may be gracious to me and let the child live.’ 23 But now that he is dead, why should I go on fasting? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me.”

From this we learn that because the mistake has been made we cannot undo it, but we can choose how we will mourn for it and how we will recover. David repented and turned back to God and proceeded into what God originally called him to do. He did not forfeit his purpose through this mess up. God did forgive him and his legacy was restored through Jesus. Did he from that day forth have no more trouble? No! Even Jesus advises us that we will have trouble, no one is exempt.

From here we have to ask ourselves, “Does what I did define me?” and “Can God use me after this.”

Remember that ultimately we have a choice. We can choose to let trouble dictate our lives and future or we can like David confess it, repent, and move on.

David never failed to get into the presence of God and found safety there.

You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.Psalms 16:11 NLT

Take note that in God has shown a path but it up to us to walk down it. The benefit is knowing that he is with us.

Here is a departing word from the Lyrics of Tenth Avenue North’s You Are More.

You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade

This is not about what you’ve done,

But what’s been done for you.
This is not about where you’ve been,
But where your brokenness brings you to
This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

No Longer Passifying the Flesh

Flesh is like a two year old with a passifier. The passifier is what keeps it quiet and gives it comfort. Everything is fine as long as it is near and can be accessed whenever desired.

As we walk in the spirit we take away the passifier. The flesh will throw fits, have major outburst, and finally fall out.

Blessed is the one who can walk away from their flesh until it falls under the subjection of the Spirit.

I do remember that because my flesh will always be a part of me that I have to remove the passifier constantly to make sure it understands it is no longer in charge. It is now forced to conduct itself by walking after the Spirit.

The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions.
Galatians 5:17 NLT

There will come a day when the passifier will be thrown out and I honestly can’t wait because the fight can be down right tiring.

We can take comfort in knowing that the Holy Spirit is with us and in us to help us overcome our flesh.

Thanks be to God who always causes us to triump in Christ Jesus!

God In Our Deficiency

The entire bible is a story of an amazing God loving, working through, and blessing ordinary people. He in his amazing mind thought us up and decided that not only did he want to create people but he wanted a personal relationship with them. These people, because of sin, were very fickle and had a short attention span so God had to come up with some solutions.

God is an equal opportunist, grace levels the playing field. His willingness to wash away sin with the blood of his son gives a chance to the world in its entirety. (See John 3:16) It’s amazing to know that when I feel like I’ve messed up I will not be turned away, but he welcomes me back with open arms.

Though out the book of Isaiah we see how people repeatedly broke God’s heart and he was angry but for a moment but still told them, “if you will turn to me and from your wicked ways I will have mercy on you.” (Isaiah 55:6-7)

It is no longer a matter of what you look like, how long you’ve been saved, where you were before you got saved, who you know, where you grew up, or what environment you were raised in. God says, “I will take them all!”

Make sure no outsider who now follows God ever has occasion to say, ‘ God put me in second-class. I don’t really belong.’ And make sure no physically mutilated person is ever made to think, ‘I’m damaged goods. I don’t really belong.’”

For God says: “To the mutilated who keep my Sabbaths and choose what delights me and keep a firm grip on my covenant, I’ll provide them an honored place in my family and within my city, even more honored than that of sons and daughters. I’ll confer permanent honors on them that will never be revoked. “And as for the outsiders who now follow me, working for me, loving my name, and wanting to be my servants— All who keep Sabbath and don’t defile it, holding fast to my covenant— I’ll bring them to my holy mountain and give them joy in my house of prayer. They’ll be welcome to worship the same as the ‘insiders,’ to bring burnt offerings and sacrifices to my altar. Oh yes, my house of worship will be known as a house of prayer for all people.” The Decree of the Master, God himself, who gathers in the exiles of Israel: “I will gather others also, gather them in with those already gathered.”
Isaiah 56:2‭-‬8 MSG

Moses, one of the most influential men in the bible, admitted his deficiency to God and allowed God to fill in what he was missing. The result of Moses’ obedience moved a nation from slavery.

Moses raised another objection to God : “Master, please, I don’t talk well. I’ve never been good with words, neither before nor after you spoke to me. I stutter and stammer.” God said, “And who do you think made the human mouth? And who makes some mute, some deaf, some sighted, some blind? Isn’t it I, God ? So, get going. I’ll be right there with you—with your mouth! I’ll be right there to teach you what to say.” He said, “Oh, Master, please! Send somebody else!” God got angry with Moses: “Don’t you have a brother, Aaron the Levite? He’s good with words, I know he is. He speaks very well. In fact, at this very moment he’s on his way to meet you. When he sees you he’s going to be glad. You’ll speak to him and tell him what to say. I’ll be right there with you as you speak and with him as he speaks, teaching you step by step. He will speak to the people for you. He’ll act as your mouth, but you’ll decide what comes out of it. Now take this staff in your hand; you’ll use it to do the signs.”
Exodus 4:10‭-‬17 MSG

For all of the goodness it makes me wonder why God chooses to deal with a fallen humanity. The answer is pure love, the definition of who God is.

But out of the sheer goodness of my heart, because of who I am, I keep a tight rein on my anger and hold my temper. I don’t wash my hands of you. Do you see what I’ve done? I’ve refined you, but not without fire. I’ve tested you like silver in the furnace of affliction. Out of myself, simply because of who I am, I do what I do. I have my reputation to keep up. I’m not playing second fiddle to either gods or people.

Isaiah 48:11 MSG

God is not deterred by our weakness. He does not turn away from us even when we are in sin, but calls to us to enjoy him and allow him to bless us.

Dear Friends, we have been approved by God through his word.

The Power of Simple: Waiting Well

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In the moments after God has made you a promise you start well excited about it and set out to see it happen. More time passes, and you have the word but no evidence of it being fulfilled. It is tempting to help God out or simply swing things so that they will turn in your favor. There are times when I get antsy in expectation and I keep checking everywhere I think the answer may be. Somewhere in hearing of the promise I forgot that God is the one who works the will and the do for his good pleasure. My input was never needed, only my willingness to obey.

This is what my prayers sound like sometimes.

God: Tracina just write. Tracina just study.

Me: But God I really would like to do something important. Maybe I could…

God: Tracina just write. Tracina just study.

Me: But God I think I would really like to do…

God: (Silence)

Saul found out the hard way that we cannot help God along and the consequences for him are summed up in him losing the anointing God placed on his life.

Then Samuel said, Do you think all God wants are sacrifices— empty rituals just for show? He wants you to listen to him! Plain listening is the thing, not staging a lavish religious production. Not doing what God tells you is far worse than fooling around in the occult. Getting self-important around God is far worse than making deals with your dead ancestors. Because you said No to God ’s command, he says No to your kingship.
1 Samuel 15:22‭-‬23 MSG

In the moment  what he was doing seemed to be a noble sacrifice but because he did not wait well and listen to God, Saul forfeited the blessing of God over his life.

 

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I do get to a place when I lack understanding. I often get to the place where I have no clue what to do next. I asked God why I have to come this way and his response was, “I can not work with you when you think you know the way. You told me I was Lord over your life and that my way is better. You have to get to a place where you are not sure so that you can see that I am who I say I am and that my strength is made perfect in your weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9) To this I can only respond with “ouch” and “yes Lord.”

I notice in this scripture and in my case that God did not tell me to do anything I am not capable of. I have to get to a place that even when the instructions make absolutely no sense I can still “trust in the Lord with all of my heart and lean not unto my own understanding.”  From there “he will direct my paths.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Resist the temptation to help God along. Don’t take for granted your day to day. For me this season in my life is called the middle where everything I do seems insignificant in the natural, but in the spirit I am moving mountains of adversity and building an unshakeable foundation. The middle prepares me. The middle sharpens me. The middle is where I find out what needs to go and what needs to stay for me to finish strong. Don’t despise the middle. The top is great, but the climb is really the part we can be proud of. It is where we find out just what the power of God on the inside of us is capable of.

 

 

 

Stretched For Purpose

Being a baby giraffe must be an awkward situation. Being born when your neck and legs are disproportional to your body creates for a lot of slips, trips, and falls. Regardless of the awkward start eventually they learn balance and can stand, walk, run, and reach without complications. Much like any baby it takes small steps, learns where to get centered and then is able to move effortlessly.

This affect can be said to be the same in the Christian walk. We are undeniably different. We stand out when we stand up and everyone notices when we fall. Take note also that when we get back up we are better than ever.

The truth is we have been created by God for a glorious purpose. One we often times can not see because of current circumstances and situations. God stretches us to show us that we are capable of more than we give ourselves credit for.

Things I’ve Learned From Being Stretched

Vision Changes

When God stretches you, you start to see things that others may not see. You gain the ability to see above the situation and past present suffering.

Reach Changes

My ability to tap into the spirit realm is heightened (pun intended)

When I am stretched I don’t go hungry because I can reach beyond where there is lack.

Capacity Changes

My capacity to enjoy what God has given be has been expanded since He has started the process of growing me up.

The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again. But one disaster is enough to overthrow the wicked.
Proverbs 24:16 NLT

My ability to receive from God cost me some discomfort. Many falls that were less than stellar and some that were down right disgraceful, but he was there to help me up and told me to keep walking.

Remember you are being stretched for purpose.

Stretch me until I am pliable

Let my anointing be undeniable

Psalm 116

Sometimes I just don’t know what to say so I will let the word of God be a testament to what is happening with me.

I love God because he listened to me, listened as I begged for mercy.

He listened so intently as I laid out my case before him.

Death stared me in the face, hell was hard on my heels.

Up against it, I didn’t know which way to turn; then I called out to God for help:

“Please, God !” I cried out.

“Save my life!” God is gracious—it is he who makes things right, our most compassionate God.

God takes the side of the helpless; when I was at the end of my rope, he saved me.

I said to myself, “Relax and rest. God has showered you with blessings. Soul, you’ve been rescued from death; Eye, you’ve been rescued from tears; And you, Foot, were kept from stumbling.”

I’m striding in the presence of God , alive in the land of the living! I stayed faithful, though bedeviled, and despite a ton of bad luck, Despite giving up on the human race, saying, “They’re all liars and cheats.”

What can I give back to God for the blessings he’s poured out on me?

I’ll lift high the cup of salvation—a toast to God ! I’ll pray in the name of God ; I’ll complete what I promised God I’d do, and I’ll do it together with his people. When they arrive at the gates of death, God welcomes those who love him. Oh, God , here I am, your servant, your faithful servant: set me free for your service! I’m ready to offer the thanksgiving sacrifice and pray in the name of God . I’ll complete what I promised God I’d do, and I’ll do it in company with his people, In the place of worship, in God ’s house, in Jerusalem, God ’s city.

Hallelujah!
****Psalm 116:1‭-‬19 MSG

Thankful

Sometimes I find myself complaining internally, a lot.

Even if I don’t verbalize it my attitude towards life is not always good.

My perspective at best is usually set on how I feel from one moment to another unless I have my mind on Jesus.

Things I complain about:

Bills: too many to pay

My son and my parents: they can be a little needy at times

My job: I go in ready to go home

My house: Grass to cut and rooms to clean

Worship tips my perspective back into the correct position. There are two sides to every coin, I’m flipping mines to the grateful side.

Things I am thankful for:

Bills: thank you for the amenities in my life, you blessed me with extra

My son and my parents: Thank you that I have them around still

My job: thank you that I am not in the unemployment line

My house: Thank you that I have a safe place to rest

It’s bill day Friday and while I’m writing checks and pushing “send payment” I will be saying, Thank you lord for all of the extra you allowed me to have.

I am so glad that the Lord is not in heaven keeping a bill of sale for everything he provides because we would be bankrupt and hopeless.

The next time I set my lips to trip I will consider the cost of the cross. Thank you Jesus that you paid it all.

John 4:23-24 (MSG)

“It’s who you are and the way you live that count before God. Your worship must engage your spirit in the pursuit of truth. That’s the kind of people the Father is out looking for: those who are simply and honestly themselves before him in their worship. God is sheer being itself—Spirit. Those who worship him must do it out of their very being, their spirits, their true selves, in adoration.”

1 Chronicles 29:10-14 NIV

10 David praised the Lord in the presence of the whole assembly, saying,

“Praise be to you, Lord, the God of our father Israel,
from everlasting to everlasting.
11 Yours, Lord, is the greatness and the power
and the glory and the majesty and the splendor,
for everything in heaven and earth is yours.
Yours, Lord, is the kingdom;
you are exalted as head over all.
12 Wealth and honor come from you;
you are the ruler of all things.
In your hands are strength and power
to exalt and give strength to all.
13 Now, our God, we give you thanks,
and praise your glorious name.

14 “But who am I, and who are my people, that we should be able to give as generously as this? Everything comes from you, and we have given you only what comes from your hand

Open the Door

There is something on the inside of you that rumbles and shakes begging to break forth and life and all of its circumstances are trying to suppress it.

Its unshakeable, banging on the door with insistence that you let it out.

It’s the one that makes you giddy when you mention it, makes you tremble at the thought of losing it.

That one that as a kid you saw it and you knew that if you could get your hands on it you would hold tight to it and never let it go.

When you close your eyes to recover from the day you see it.

When you hear its voice in the sound of the crowd you long for it.

When someone speaks ill against it you fume.

When you think of how great it would be to possess it you search for areas of your life where you can make room.

It’s the spot on the earth that God has carved out for you and only you can fit into it.

It’s your destiny.

What’s Left Standing When The Earth Quakes?

Devastation can leave you disoriented and feeling squeezed out.psx_20180503_2027101542261664.jpg It’s the blow that knocks your entire being sideways. The contents of you heart are exposed, and you are forced to face what you thought you knew, what you thought you felt, and what you did and didn’t mean to say.

Every now and then God will allow the enemy to press you to show you what is on the inside of you that needs to be excavated. Be sure there is not residue from the enemy on the inside of you. Kill everything that may resemble him. Clean your house and fill it with the word of God. Renew your mind daily because what is inside will come out! From your lips you can feed the flame, or you can choke it out with the covering of the word of God.

 
Negative self-talk is not beneficial to the health of your spirit. Speak in the direction of your purpose. The power of words is described as being a small fire that can set an entire forest on fire. It has the power to cause irreparable damage. It can kill your spirit, your dreams, and your destiny. When willed by the Holy Spirit it has the opposite affect, blazing a trail of success that is built to last. 1525354882810_image1716752210.jpg
When devastation crosses your path be sure that it does not trip you up and misdirect you from your purpose. Be careful that you do not kill your purpose with your own sword. Our words are powerful and with them we can build or tear down.

Moments like these we need a sure foundation. The one thing that will stand when everything else is in a disarray, the unshakeable truth which is the word of God. it is  the one thing that will not and can not change. In it’s unchanging state is has the power to bring about change.

 

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Dear friends please know that your pain is not in vain.

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