I am by no means an agent of change. I like my comfy mess and I am content to stand still. The issue is that I told God to make me into what He wants me to be and my love for Him overrides my comfortable disposition. When I relinquished control things started to change, although at times uncomfortable, it pushed me on to a new level. I find that the things I thought I liked and possibly even loved, things were in reality not conducive to my development, no longer appealed to me.
Riding with God has been a journey, like a rollercoaster that only plateaus for a short time before it takes off again. I have experienced turbulence, darkness, and even fear, but through it all God is reassuring me that I am heading to a place in him that will cause others to draw near to Him. I don’t mind the ride and I love that His only requirement for me is to show love to His creations and to Give Him glory.
Don’t just take my word for it!
Ecclesiastes 3 ESV
1 FOR EVERYTHING THERE IS A SEASON, AND A TIME FOR EVERY MATTER UNDER HEAVEN…
11 HE HAS MADE EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL IN ITS TIME. ALSO, HE HAS PUT ETERNITY INTO MAN’S HEART, YET SO THAT HE CANNOT FIND OUT WHAT GOD HAS DONE FROM THE BEGINNING TO THE END. 12 I PERCEIVED THAT THERE IS NOTHING BETTER FOR THEM THAN TO BE JOYFUL AND TO DO GOOD AS LONG AS THEY LIVE; 13 ALSO THAT EVERYONE SHOULD EAT AND DRINK AND TAKE PLEASURE IN ALL HIS TOIL—THIS IS GOD’S GIFT TO MAN.